The vision is set. The new fabrics have been sourced. Cutting and creative assembly begins. However, somewhere between the first stitch and the final hemming, you suddenly cannot stand to look at the two projects and would rather do everything in your power to avoid even a small glance in their direction.
Welcome to the last few days of my life.
Recently, I sat in front of my machine and tried to will myself to start cutting and placing the boning. It's a rather straight forward and relatively easy process that amounts to cutting the boning to the desired length, cutting the tip of the encased plastic within the seam allowance an then sewing the altered piece to the garment facing. I made it to two before I felt compelled to stop. Suddenly, nothing looked right. The previously applied boning, which I had cheered myself on for doing such a good job in installing, looked boring and lifeless. The whole colorful piece looked old and ugly. I felt a violent internal discourse between the vision that I had at the beginning, the assembly process and waning drive to continue. Yet, visually, there was nothing wrong with the pieces!
Was I simply bored and frustrated with the amount of time it took to construct my garments of pleasure? Was I burning myself out by switching back and forth between the A line halter version and the black and turquoise belted trim vision that formerly inspired me? What was going on?
I stopped. I started at my machine and took a deep breath. I realized that I needed to do anything but sit at my machine for a few days. I didn't want to stop sewing. But, I didn't want to become frustrated and obsessed with it either.
http://www.kimberlykirven.com using http://www.flavors.me and I've created this blog. I rediscovered that instead of forcing myself to complete a project, being at ease and non resistant toward it benefited me in better ways. Letting my creative energy jump from sewing to other parts of my life created a balance that has slowly calmed my resistance. I can't bother with wondering how it got there. The only thing I can do is work with myself to find joy in the project again so that I can complete it rather than resent it.
Slowly, I'm getting used to the idea of enjoying my sewing machine again. Slowly, I'm not feeling so overwhelmed with the remaining procedures. I know how to install an invisible zipper. The boning came easy once, and can again. Top stitching and teaching myself how to use seam binding tape will create a fantastic finished product that I'll be proud to wear (when it's not raining as it is right now).
Like with anything in one's past, it takes a pass of time before you can see things clearly and with a calm air. Happily for my cheering section - and most importantly, me - I'm almost done.